Friday, February 25, 2005
I do not always do everything I mean to do.
I do not always mean to do everything I do.
I thought I was over my odd little episode of ditching LJ, but today I sort of got sucked back into that mental mode. Since I said was going to explain further, I believe I will--partly because I think that's where a little of my avoidance behavior is coming from (not wanting to think about it, eh?).
Part of the problem is just how I seem to be wired up. I get focused in on something and WHAP! I'm stuck there, or at least the main part of my attention and action/interest is. I'm really very bad at alloting set amounts of time per day to several different things that need doing. I tend to sort of pick one thing and fixiate on THAT. Except for the times I can't focus on any one thing at ALL and go pinballing at random from task to task....
Anyway, what happened just after I went away for the last weekend in January was I suddenly re-panicked about finances. As you may recall, we had been running behind for a while, for a group of reasons that kind of ganged up on us. Business was good in the holiday season, though, and then we did do pretty darned well out of the eBay Dime Listing Day. So things were looking up.
But things like this editorial in the NY Times have really gotten me, the former perennial optimist, pretty nervous:
http://www.nytimes.com/2005/02/24/opinion/24friedman.html?th
My reaction is to drop everything else right now and work my head off doing everything I can to make some money. Otherwise we'll end up living in our camper down by the river eating government cheese, except there ain't a-gonna BE no government cheese, because the government hates us and wants all us poor people to die....
Maybe that's actually a rational approach instead of a paranoid one, I don't know (the doing more work part, not the cheesy thing). But on the other hand, all work and no play, you know?
So I am trying to keep balanced. Don't worry if I slip off now and then. I'm still here in my little e-nest surrounded by the towering stacks of books...and I'll be back posting again pretty soon....
I thought I was over my odd little episode of ditching LJ, but today I sort of got sucked back into that mental mode. Since I said was going to explain further, I believe I will--partly because I think that's where a little of my avoidance behavior is coming from (not wanting to think about it, eh?).
Part of the problem is just how I seem to be wired up. I get focused in on something and WHAP! I'm stuck there, or at least the main part of my attention and action/interest is. I'm really very bad at alloting set amounts of time per day to several different things that need doing. I tend to sort of pick one thing and fixiate on THAT. Except for the times I can't focus on any one thing at ALL and go pinballing at random from task to task....
Anyway, what happened just after I went away for the last weekend in January was I suddenly re-panicked about finances. As you may recall, we had been running behind for a while, for a group of reasons that kind of ganged up on us. Business was good in the holiday season, though, and then we did do pretty darned well out of the eBay Dime Listing Day. So things were looking up.
But things like this editorial in the NY Times have really gotten me, the former perennial optimist, pretty nervous:
http://www.nytimes.com/2005/02/24/opinion/24friedman.html?th
My reaction is to drop everything else right now and work my head off doing everything I can to make some money. Otherwise we'll end up living in our camper down by the river eating government cheese, except there ain't a-gonna BE no government cheese, because the government hates us and wants all us poor people to die....
Maybe that's actually a rational approach instead of a paranoid one, I don't know (the doing more work part, not the cheesy thing). But on the other hand, all work and no play, you know?
So I am trying to keep balanced. Don't worry if I slip off now and then. I'm still here in my little e-nest surrounded by the towering stacks of books...and I'll be back posting again pretty soon....
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